A new week

It's a new week and hopefully the bad weather isn't a sign of things to come. I'm gonna go in and talk with Jo about a raise. I'm tired of having to do nothing for 2 months just so that I have some cash to spare. I'm not feeling well today. My sinuses and allergies are starting to get to me, or at least I hope that is all it is. I think last night was the best night sleep I've gotten in 2 weeks, so maybe I'm over my insomnia bout. Just 17 days till my birthday and I turn 25. A quarter of a century. I have nothing to show for it right now. Hopefully that will change soon as well. This has been a scatter brained post I know but I'm just killing time before going to work. Guess that is all.

Still alive

Yeah so I as able to get Tuesday off but only because I was pushing 60 hours for the week. I had a nice, all though short, visit to my dad's and then made it back that late afternoon and played WoW and that evening I met Cathy at Sinclairs for a snack and drinks while discussing the wonderfulness that is our collective existences. So now I have to be at work in 40 minutes, the final day in this pay week cycle. We have catering tonight and I hope to God that I don't have to work it or at least stay the entire time. Without working it I will hit 50 hours and I'm hoping my cheapass boss will send me home so I don't go any more into overtime. I want to do something tonight but if I have to stay for the catering then I won't be home till 9-9:30 and most everyone will not be wanting to do anything I'm sure. I really need a job that allows me to actually have a life outside of it. I think it's time again to step up the job search into overdrive.

Day 5

Made it through Sunday. Almost fell asleep on my feet a few times. Don't have to be into work until noon tomorrow. Bad news though is that after talking to Kedric today, he won't be back until Thursday at the earliest. Doctor said his tear in his rotator cuff was the worst he had ever seen. It's gonna be a good week I can tell already.

Day 4

My haterd and utter contempt for Huntingdon College and the people who run it knows no bounds. Fucking idiots, all of them. I'm tired. So tired it actually physically hurts. I'll be glad when tomorrow is over and I might can get a day off sometime soon. I probally won't and will have to wait till Friday, but thems the breaks I suppose. I need to go to bed but I know I won't go to sleep since I've been plagued with a nice set of insomina all week. Joy of joys it's great being me.

Day 3

Our card swiper system for clocking in and out is a piece of shit and doesn't work. I couldn't even clock in today. My paycheck is going to be so messed up it isn't funny. For all the crap I'm doing this week while everyone is out sick or other, I had BETTER get all of my money cause my ass earned it this past 2 weeks. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the Host Day tomorrow which is a huge pain in the ass mostly cause Huntingdon doesn't talk to anyone else involved so no one knows how many is coming and they are really neglecting the students in the way they go about doing these things. But whatever. If I can make it through tomorrow I'll be fine. The rest is a piece of cake. Or should be. I'm just mentally and physically exhausted at the moment. It is going to be a loooooong weekend.

Day 2

No deaths or injuries so far, but for how long can we keep this up? Jo was still sick with the Flu today though she should be back she says on Friday so we shall see. This still left Vida and I in charge, but since she sometimes rubs people the wrong way when she stresses out everyone started coming to me for everything. Even Vida did by the end. This is going to be a looooong weekend but if I can make it through Sunday I will be ok. The rest will be easy and hopefully I will be able to get next weekend off, or at least a day or two. I have no time for anything other than work now adays. I want to try and have more of a social life but it always seems that when I'm free, no one else is. If it wasn't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all lol. Maybe I'll get some thrown my way soon. I'm due. I guess if anyone wants to do something Sunday night they should tell me so something can get planned. I'd like to do something Friday or Saturday after work but I have to be back at work at 8am sat and 7am sunday so the bed will be calling me before too late. I still need a nice cute girl so if anyone knows any availiable they should hook me up since I am incapable of doing so myself. Much thanks will be instore. That is all for now.

So it begins

Wedensday was the first day at work with Kedric gone recovering from surgery. This with the boss lady out with the flu left me and Vida in charge, and with her running around doing catering all day, really it left me running the show somewhat. So are no one is dead and the building is left in one piece. Just 8 more days to go before my 69 or so hour marathon of work is over with. At least my paycheck should be nice and fat. We did get the schudule done so there would be extra people working so I wouldn't have to bust my butt . I'm looking at a good 20-25 hours of overtime. One another note, I heard yesterday that the manage of Visions might be leaving, so if that turns out to be true, I will apply there. It won't pay much more but I won't be miserable in the Dining Hall. Also I'm in good with the owner since him and Andy, the manger, credit Michael, Gabe and I with pulling in over $16,000 worth of sales for gamesworkshop merchindise this year which is more sales than they have EVER had for any of the products they sell. I think my chances will be good if it comes open. That brings me to another thing, my offered living arrangement with Matty. I think I will be putting that on hold for 6 months to a year. I really want to be around here while the build up to the wedding is going on in June and then the future Mr and Mrs Upchurch will only be here another year before heading off to the far away land of carolina, and of course I couldn't leave poor Cathy alone with no one for her to torrment. ;) Anyway, so that's where I'm at now. I'm looking for a nice woman to fill the void in my life that is currently being filled by World of Warcraft, but other than that it's all good for the time being. I just hope I can make it till this time next week....

Sorry

Sorry about the last post. It's been a long week and I feel like crap. Don't take it to heart or anything. I've just been mad and a little depressed lately. And lonely...

Same old song and dance

Seems everytime I go to write something lately it is just me bitching and complaining about life. Well this one won't be any different. I talked to Matty yesterday finally and he wants me to still come live in Dothan with him but there are some factors standing in the way. #1 is that his contractor has been sitting on his ass for 2 months and done nothing so no one knows when the house will be finished, or even started. #2 is that I don't have a job waiting one me. It doesn't look like there will be anything open with Matty's company so that is out of it, so short of just relocating and then hoping for the best, I'm jobless. I shouldn't be surprised by any of this since anytime I make any sort of plans or have any asperiations or dreams for the future they fall apart. These things have been hitting me hard lately. I have done nothing with my life and it doesn't look like it's gonna be any better in the future. I'll be 25 in a little over a month and I have nothing to show for it. One huge fucking failure. I have nothing but debt to call my own, a so far useless degree, a shitty job, and I'm alone. And you know it's the last one that hurts the worst. I can deal with the other stuff, it bothers me but usually just enough to make me complain and bang my head against the wall in frustration, but the being alone is killing me. To love and to be loved. Would it make everything better? Who can say? Would it make it easier to deal with the day to day crude? Hell yeah it would. But I'm not the kind of guy that can go up and start a conversation with someone I don't know, so that makes finding a woman hard to do since I've run out of options with the ones I know. With being out of school I don't have that many oppurtunities to meet new people, and with all of my friends finally graduating and moving off my other way of meeting people will be gone. Guess I'm destined to go it alone. I'm hopeless it seems. It doesn't help that I can't seem to completely let go of the past. I guess that's cause I was happy then and so miserable now. Doesn't help that I'm a hopeless romantic at heart. But anyway, I just needed to get these things off my chest. Since I don't really have anyone to talk to about stuff like this anymore since they are so busy, and well it applies to them as well too, I guess this is as good as place as any to vent. It's not like anyone reads this anymore. Not that anyone ever cared.

The Days of Blah

I want a new job. I don't want to be alone anymore. I want a new life cause this one sucks. I wonder if anyone even gives a rat ass anymore. I'm so tired I don't know what to do anymore. I wonder if anyone will remember me when my birthday comes around. will anyone bother to remember me period? Sometimes I doubt it, othertimes not. Nothing bad has happened to stir up these feelings, but that is kind of the problem. NOTHING has happened, even when I do break out of my shell and try to make it happen. I'm about ready to throw in the towell, call it quits and be resigned to the fact I'll always be alone and an outsider to most everyone else. Fuck it all. Fuck you!

P.S. I'm glad I got that out of my system and I feel somewhat better already. Please return to your regular programing, and pay no heed to a bitter old soul.